Thursday, September 10, 2009
♥ Nothing better to do
Okay guess i was bored.. i decided to update my stoopid lonely blog.. aniwaes guess what? tonite wld be the 1st nite i'll be goin back to work. 6 days of staying at home has made me really lazy and makin my butt even bigger than it already is, i kinna miss werk actually as lame as that sounds. haha.. i also kinna miss my frens.. yEuL bitch where u at??? i miss eu soo much.. we shld mit up..i miss clare too!! but ill be meeting her tonite so i have no worries about that.. i miss my bestie she has gone MIA on me again!! her berfday is next week and i tot maybe i shld treat her to sumthing nice. Clare's berfday is cumin up too but that wld be after raya so u noe what that means?? PARty TIME!!! YUUUUUUP!!!
Who wants to join us??? im gonna make her madd drunk!! but u better not bite me again u BITCH!! Crazy ass girl! the last time we went clubbing she was high of the sky and she literally bit me! Crazy girl! thats rite girl! i put YOU on blast! do that shit again and i will lay all ur SHIT bare!
Those are some crazy time.. but as lonely as it sounds theres only me and Clare left. No drama, No nothing.. I sumtimes miss my old team but i dun miss the drama.. YUUUP!
Ok werk aside.. i change my song again. kinna reflects on how i feel rite now.. not the cheating part.. just the part when she sang the chorus "After all of this time that we tried, i found out we were living a lie and after all of this love that we made i found out you dont love me the same...."
Thats deep.. its sad and emotional.. yes i havent gotten over him completely... How do u get over someone you thought you were gonna live the rest of your live with? Yes i really thought we were gonna grow old together, make babies and have grandkids.. He was my high-school sweetheart nothing can compare to that. but as people surrounding me keep telling me to get over him. He aint worth my time. blah blah blah....
I dont usually say out how i feel to people.. i dont express how i really feel about me and my ex towards them because i rather deal with their pain than mine. So for the most part i just bottled them in and ive done a great job too. I dont think they know how broken i really am.. I guess thats why i cant let that new person in... I feel bad.. but i cant be with that new person, i try forcing myself too but its not werking.. theres only soo much i can do...
Memories after memories of him and me... I have yet to delete his numbers from my fone, i have yet to delete his fotos.. i dunno how..? i dunno if i wan too... i dunno if im ready to let him go emotionally.. its soo hard.. its hard toking bout him, its harder to breathe... i dont want to sound pathetic.. but thats how i truly feel...
It takes time i know.. and i hate dragging this new guy into more complication but i dunno how to tell him without letting him know that im not like all the girls he know.. i like being in a committed relationship.. im just too broken to be in 1 rite now... I feel like this song is a perfect song from me to him...
cya
peace
urs tRuLy.
♥ct Riah♥
Who wants to join us??? im gonna make her madd drunk!! but u better not bite me again u BITCH!! Crazy ass girl! the last time we went clubbing she was high of the sky and she literally bit me! Crazy girl! thats rite girl! i put YOU on blast! do that shit again and i will lay all ur SHIT bare!
Those are some crazy time.. but as lonely as it sounds theres only me and Clare left. No drama, No nothing.. I sumtimes miss my old team but i dun miss the drama.. YUUUP!
Ok werk aside.. i change my song again. kinna reflects on how i feel rite now.. not the cheating part.. just the part when she sang the chorus "After all of this time that we tried, i found out we were living a lie and after all of this love that we made i found out you dont love me the same...."
Thats deep.. its sad and emotional.. yes i havent gotten over him completely... How do u get over someone you thought you were gonna live the rest of your live with? Yes i really thought we were gonna grow old together, make babies and have grandkids.. He was my high-school sweetheart nothing can compare to that. but as people surrounding me keep telling me to get over him. He aint worth my time. blah blah blah....
I dont usually say out how i feel to people.. i dont express how i really feel about me and my ex towards them because i rather deal with their pain than mine. So for the most part i just bottled them in and ive done a great job too. I dont think they know how broken i really am.. I guess thats why i cant let that new person in... I feel bad.. but i cant be with that new person, i try forcing myself too but its not werking.. theres only soo much i can do...
Memories after memories of him and me... I have yet to delete his numbers from my fone, i have yet to delete his fotos.. i dunno how..? i dunno if i wan too... i dunno if im ready to let him go emotionally.. its soo hard.. its hard toking bout him, its harder to breathe... i dont want to sound pathetic.. but thats how i truly feel...
It takes time i know.. and i hate dragging this new guy into more complication but i dunno how to tell him without letting him know that im not like all the girls he know.. i like being in a committed relationship.. im just too broken to be in 1 rite now... I feel like this song is a perfect song from me to him...
Ohhhhh.
Yeahhhh Yeah.
Really wish i could.
If only someone could unbreak my heart
Come relieve my pain
Somehow I could wish upon a star
and make all of the memories go away,
but my mind just keeps on going back
and I can't help but think about
that guy that's gon make me miss out on you
And I can't help but remember
about that sad day in September
The day he took my heart with him when he left.
Ohhhhh.
See eventually I will get through this,
but right now it seems my heart's in the way.
I apologize of the way that I treat you
but I gotta leave you,
unless somehow I come across a case of amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the heartache)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the pain)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(and i think, and i think it'll make things better)
I gotta leave ya I gotta leave you.
I tryed to leave the past behind me
but it just hurts so bad. Ohhh.
and i tell myself please don't cry,
let it go and let the past be the past.
but my mind just keeps on going back
And I cant help but think about
that guy that's gon make me miss out on you.
And I can't help but remember about that sad day in September
when ya took my heart and just ran away! ohhh
See eventually I will get through this,
but right now it seems my heart's in the way.
I apologize of the way that I treat you
but I gotta leave you,
unless somehow I come across a case of amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the heartache)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the pain)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(and i think it'll make, it'll make things better)
I gotta leave ya, I gotta leave you.
Everytime you try to get closer to me
I'm fallin back cuz I can't go down this road again
memories won't go away
constantly in control of my life
I don't wanna erase it all
and forget about it all!
See eventually I will get through this,
but right now it seems my heart's in the way.
I apologize of the way that I treat you
but I gotta leave you,
unless I come across a case of amnesia
See eventually I will get through this,
but right now it seems my heart's in the way.
I apologize of the way that I treat you
but I gotta leave you,
unless somehow I come across a case of amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the heartache)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the pain)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(and i think it'll make, it'll make things better)
I gotta leave ya, I gotta leave you.
its by Cherish - Amnesia... The song is explainin to this guy that unless She gets amnesia so that she wont remember the past rship she had she cant be with him because she is still hurting from the guy that stole and broke her heart. Thats exactly how i feel.. but easier said than done.. i'll leave a video at the bottom i hope you guys enjoy it..cya
peace
urs tRuLy.
♥ct Riah♥
♠ And she feel loved__++
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