mA LiFe iN wErDZ~~

Nothing better to do

2009-09-10T15:21:00.007+08:00

Okay guess i was bored.. i decided to update my stoopid lonely blog.. aniwaes guess what? tonite wld be the 1st nite i'll be goin back to work. 6 days of staying at home has made me really lazy and makin my butt even bigger than it already is, i kinna miss werk actually as lame as that sounds. haha.. i also kinna miss my frens.. yEuL bitch where u at??? i miss eu soo much.. we shld mit up..i miss clare too!! but ill be meeting her tonite so i have no worries about that.. i miss my bestie she has gone MIA on me again!! her berfday is next week and i tot maybe i shld treat her to sumthing nice. Clare's berfday is cumin up too but that wld be after raya so u noe what that means?? PARty TIME!!! YUUUUUUP!!!

Who wants to join us??? im gonna make her madd drunk!! but u better not bite me again u BITCH!! Crazy ass girl! the last time we went clubbing she was high of the sky and she literally bit me! Crazy girl! thats rite girl! i put YOU on blast! do that shit again and i will lay all ur SHIT bare!

Those are some crazy time.. but as lonely as it sounds theres only me and Clare left. No drama, No nothing.. I sumtimes miss my old team but i dun miss the drama.. YUUUP!

Ok werk aside.. i change my song again. kinna reflects on how i feel rite now.. not the cheating part.. just the part when she sang the chorus "After all of this time that we tried, i found out we were living a lie and after all of this love that we made i found out you dont love me the same...."

Thats deep.. its sad and emotional.. yes i havent gotten over him completely... How do u get over someone you thought you were gonna live the rest of your live with? Yes i really thought we were gonna grow old together, make babies and have grandkids.. He was my high-school sweetheart nothing can compare to that. but as people surrounding me keep telling me to get over him. He aint worth my time. blah blah blah....

I dont usually say out how i feel to people.. i dont express how i really feel about me and my ex towards them because i rather deal with their pain than mine. So for the most part i just bottled them in and ive done a great job too. I dont think they know how broken i really am.. I guess thats why i cant let that new person in... I feel bad.. but i cant be with that new person, i try forcing myself too but its not werking.. theres only soo much i can do...

Memories after memories of him and me... I have yet to delete his numbers from my fone, i have yet to delete his fotos.. i dunno how..? i dunno if i wan too... i dunno if im ready to let him go emotionally.. its soo hard.. its hard toking bout him, its harder to breathe... i dont want to sound pathetic.. but thats how i truly feel...

It takes time i know.. and i hate dragging this new guy into more complication but i dunno how to tell him without letting him know that im not like all the girls he know.. i like being in a committed relationship.. im just too broken to be in 1 rite now... I feel like this song is a perfect song from me to him...

Ohhhhh.

Yeahhhh Yeah.

Really wish i could.

If only someone could unbreak my heart
Come relieve my pain
Somehow I could wish upon a star
and make all of the memories go away,

but my mind just keeps on going back
and I can't help but think about
that guy that's gon make me miss out on you
And I can't help but remember
about that sad day in September
The day he took my heart with him when he left.
Ohhhhh.

See eventually I will get through this,
but right now it seems my heart's in the way.
I apologize of the way that I treat you
but I gotta leave you,
unless somehow I come across a case of amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the heartache)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the pain)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(and i think, and i think it'll make things better)

I gotta leave ya I gotta leave you.

I tryed to leave the past behind me
but it just hurts so bad. Ohhh.
and i tell myself please don't cry,
let it go and let the past be the past.

but my mind just keeps on going back
And I cant help but think about
that guy that's gon make me miss out on you.
And I can't help but remember about that sad day in September
when ya took my heart and just ran away! ohhh

See eventually I will get through this,
but right now it seems my heart's in the way.
I apologize of the way that I treat you
but I gotta leave you,
unless somehow I come across a case of amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the heartache)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the pain)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(and i think it'll make, it'll make things better)

I gotta leave ya, I gotta leave you.

Everytime you try to get closer to me
I'm fallin back cuz I can't go down this road again
memories won't go away
constantly in control of my life
I don't wanna erase it all
and forget about it all!

See eventually I will get through this,
but right now it seems my heart's in the way.
I apologize of the way that I treat you
but I gotta leave you,
unless I come across a case of amnesia

See eventually I will get through this,
but right now it seems my heart's in the way.
I apologize of the way that I treat you
but I gotta leave you,
unless somehow I come across a case of amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the heartache)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(to forget, to forget, to forget the pain)
Amnesia, amnesia, amnesia.
(and i think it'll make, it'll make things better)

I gotta leave ya, I gotta leave you.

its by Cherish - Amnesia... The song is explainin to this guy that unless She gets amnesia so that she wont remember the past rship she had she cant be with him because she is still hurting from the guy that stole and broke her heart. Thats exactly how i feel.. but easier said than done.. i'll leave a video at the bottom i hope you guys enjoy it..

cya

peace

urs tRuLy.
♥ct Riah♥

mp3 music | Cherish MP3s

Its been a long time...

2009-08-06T03:13:00.009+08:00

Hey BLog... i have been gone for a long time.. i have been thru soo much in the last 3 months or so. As u may or may not know im still working at my current job, i have lost a lot in such a short amount of time. I also have gain some good people in my life, i have gone thru some soul searching and some self healing. I have to say my life now is stable, im happy to be where i am now. Dont get me wrong i still get lonely and i think about him from time to time but i noe that God wants sumthing else for me and so i take it and just go with the flow.

I think these past few months has been very challenging for me be it at work,with friends or getting to know someone new. I have yet to overcome the challenges at work but i know if i focused and put my all into it i can achieve the goals they have set for me. As for friends im dissappointed that i cant save all of them, i noe i can be out there,i can be a bit aggressive and might have a sharp toungue but im a very forgiving person. Im no saint of course but i learn to be forgiving and giving somebody chances to redeem themselves besides i gave him 5 years of too many chances im sure i can do the same with friends but as i tell myself everyday i can only help them this much but its up to them to do whats right.

I have to be honest though among the friendships i have, this one truly hurt and deeply dissappointed me. i have dissappointed myself by getting too invested in the friendship when clearly i made a promised not to get too involved. I have no one to blame but myself, a lesson i have yet to master. I guess everday is a learning proccess and hopefully i will one day be able to not overstepped my boundaries but to whoever it may be concern i wish you all the best of luck and hopefully one day YOU will realise that some things or shall i say some people no matter how much you think you love them and care about them you have to let them go especially when you know he/she brings more harm to you than good. No matter how long or how well you think you know them, sometimes letting go is better than keeping them and going through the pain.

As for new people in my life.... i dun really wanna talk about it bcoz thats another thing i think i made a huge mistake, an investment i really am not ready for.

Yes i have flaws and i love my flaws because it makes me who i am today. I wouldnt change me for anything in the world, is just not right.

Onto a better note for this entry, i am going clubbing this weekend! i noe, i noe.. i shldnt be goin to clubs being that its getting nearer to ramadhan but this wld be the last time i go to any club. until Raya and i think i deserve a bit of fun. Im not going to be drinking so i think im safe, I have bought an outfit for the nite and i cant wait to wear it. hehehe.. Hopefully there wld be lots of pictures taken. I am gonna have a blast! hehehe.. MyBooBieBitCh is the organizer so she better make sure i have the most unforgettable club nite ever! A good unforgettable nite! not a bad one, God knows ive had enuff of those... sheesh....

I can just feel the excitement pumping through my veins.. i still have two nights to live thru at werk. ANd then party time! hehehe...

Hmmm... wat else am i looking forward to? Ooohh.. I wanna cut my hair.. i wanna new style.. but i dunno. im not goona cut my hair too short though.. just cut it enuff to have a new style. Im gonna have it cut and trim and have a treatment. I have split ends that are just endless... it wont go away! Damn it. I feel like cutting it damn short and wear a wig.. hahahaha... That wld never happen though. so yah..

I wanna go on my next holiday, my mum and sis is planning to go to langkawi but my mum then decided to go to Brisbane again as you guys know or may not know prices for air tickets are goind down so its cheap nowadays. I wld love to go to australia again but i dont know if i have enough leave days to last me a week. So i need to check on that a.s.a.p! but im kinna pissed off at the new roster they have given us. Our off days are sooo far off from each other that its hard to take leaves in between. That way we have to use more of our leaves then the off days, haizzz...

this merger has its ups and downs. i dunno to be happy or sad. I guess i have to be grateful that i still have a job in these hard times. Right?

oh well.. anyways...

Although i have lost a love one, i have not lost my love for Chris Brown, yes i am still very much obssesed with him. One day he might even sing that M.C song to me. Anyhoos i wish all the best to him and no matter what i would always support his music no matter how crazy he gets. haha..

So Chris make a good one for the next album for me okay? i promise i will buy it and try not to lose it this time and it would make my life more happier if you come to Singapore and do a concert and give me backstage passes so i can meet you and give you...... a HUG. jeeezz.. WTH you guys were thingking.. his not even 21 yet., i cant be doing illegal shit to him. (Although im sure he wont mind, since im asian and his black and we can have soo much fun! muahahaha!)

Another music artiste that really has gotten my attention is Kristinia Debarge, shes actually pretty talented for a 19 year old. although she has started at a very young age but only now she is getting recognition for all the hardwork she has done. I have heard almost all her songs in her new debut album and i have to say most of her songs are great, songs i can say that most people can relate to. I think im gonna go and buy her album, i really mean it when i say shes really good. She writes her own songs and how many artiste in the industry can say they write their own material on their first album? There are of course but not many of them and its hard to really sell your own material but i have to say she did it. She's one good songwriter and a voice to top it off with.I say kudos to her, and wish her all the best in her upcoming tour with Miss Britney Bitch. Yes, shes goin on tour with Britney.. haha.... 1st tour and gets to open for Britney Spears. Some girls have all the luck!

Ohkee dookee.. i think im done for now... im gonna stop here and go rest my BIG pretty EYES..

hehehe...

cya next time wen i feel like blogging...

haha...

pEaCe

uRs tRuLy,

♥ct riaH♥

♥I cried me a river,
I cried me a sea,
I cried me an ocean,
I cried me a stream.
Im out of emotion,
Got nothing in me.
And I woulda done anything in the world for you
I woulda done anything that you told me to♥

Apologies.

2008-10-06T20:24:00.013+08:00

Ok well first of i wld like to start my entry by apologising to a few people, due to my absense and empty promises "janji melayu" i promised a couple of people that i wld be meeting them but as luck has it, my job has taken a lot of my time and my ENERGY. Yes damn tiring u know, another reason is because my phone bill haven't been paid and is now out of service so i can't contact anybody at the moment but i will be paying it as soon as my October pay comes. My first pay was mostly spent on Hari Raya baju and jeng!jeng!jeng! Newly PERMED hair! COOLNESS! ok2 back to topic, i wld DEFINITLEY like to apologise to yEuL first && foremost coz she's one of the first few people that has been pestering me to meet her since i dunno how many "years" ago and i keep PROCRASTINATING it like forever. I'm sorry beb, i will make it up to u, i promise. My ex ITE classmates also, who i have planned to meet during the bazaar geylang but also failed to meet. I take full responsibility because i kept postponing it sampai dah rayer pon.

I GET IT!! I am very bad at KEEPING PROMISES! Also before i forget even though this is kind of too late, i wld like to wish my BESTEST most TERsayang! Most Terkiut! Most yg the BESTlah kan senang kater my BESTFRIEND a HAPPY BELATED 20th BERFDAY!!! Yes Yana anak WAK LAN! Ko dah tua tk gune lagi!! muahahaha. As fer your berfday treat insyallah i will treat u this month. Insyallah. ok?? I love you bestie! Thanks fer being there fer the past 8 Years!

Onto other relevant stuff, i would like to share you all about my new job that is quite stressful because one i'm in training fer 10 weeks. While in training i have assesments that are considered like exams every week except when i'm on OJT which i did last week. For the past 4 weeks i have been trained to read a passenger's Itinerary, what are their destinations, from what origin they are going to fly off, How do we calculate the total Flight cost. No idea what i'm talking about right? its ok because i didn't know either when i first started. Totally normal. There is more than what i've mentioned, more indepth, but you guys won't understand. Don't mistake this as a job like in the Airport, the ones that are ONLY issuing out tickets. NOW that job is chicken mcnuggets compared to mine, Mine is a call-centre. So totally different scenario.

I don't know if i can last up till 6 months but i'm hoping that i will, i DO NOT want to find another job because its hard. very cian if u ask me. Plus this pay is not bad. What i'm still second-guessing is what shift do i wanna take, i don't think i'mma opt for the night-shift. I might take the Morning or Afternoon Shift, most prob the afternoon shift because at least i still can get the allowance money. So hopefully i do well and get the desired shift.

My team which is Team-21 are a fun bunch! Like seriously, they are real sporting people. On the 2nd day of Raya we had to werk so we all planned to wear our traditional clothings, we all also did a Pot Luck. So during Lunch time we ate together at the Pantry, took a whole bunch of Fotos. actually we wld take pics every week. Friday is a color-coding day, so we all wld wear the same color and take fotos. Our Trainers are also sporting so they never mind us when we ask them to take pictures fer us. During the fasting period the week we got our pays we all went out and break-fast together at Mayuni's Cafe after-which we went Karoeke at town. It was fun!

SO i really mean it when i say i have met the most GEREK-group, my team consist of a LOT of Malay. One chinese,One indian and 2 Philipino. So imagine the kechoness of us in the class, everyday there are some funny topics brought up. So its never Boring. I totally don't regret getting this Job and even when i feel like giving up my fellow collegues wld help me and bring my spirit up. So Thank-You up there for giving me an opportunity!

Aiite enough talk and let the PICTURES do the talking.

My Team!

Blue Day

2nd Day of Raya

At Mayuni's Cafe waiting fer Break-Fast

Karaoke Session

Outside Mayuni's Cafe

The five NWA LADIES

In The Train,on the way to Arab Street.

Out Smoking

Outside Payah Lebar SingPost.

Me&Lyah

Oh, Rahimah did a performance fer us at Mayuni's Cafe.

She sang "Kekasih GelapKu"

and Last but Not least me!

Aiite so i didn't post my Hari Raya pics with my family, its not many so there's not much fotos i can put up. I also haven't shown u my NEWLY PERMED HAIR! hehehe. i will on the next enrty, so you guys are going to have to wait fer it. nyehehehe.. Just to let ya'll know BF is not in SG fer 3 weeks. I'm upset! He is FORCED to go to AUSTRALIA!! I feel like pulling my hair actually! Hmph! i told him he cannot go! Now he gone already. His flight was today which was actually at 4 pm. And i didn't even get to sent him off! Bluek! Spend the last 2 days together, went shopping with him. He bought me a watch! so i can scratch off 2 things of my wishlist! CoolNess! Aiite2. so i'm done fer this entry. i'm going off.

PEACE!

ps: I started liking this song (Pulanglah by Aishah) when Lyah sang this at the Karaoke session. She sang so Beautifully! Plus i can like relate to this song. I'm not celebrating Hari Raya with Yan this year, so sedih!...

urs truLy,

♥ ct.riaH ♥

♥ .I'm Starin At The Clock,It's A Quarter To Three,I'm Tossin In My Bed,Cause I Jus Can't Sleep,Cause You're Not Here With Me,I'm Reachin Out For You,I Wish I Could Talk To You,Tryna Figure Out What's Goin On With Me. ♥

Nothing better to do..

2008-09-05T22:48:00.005+08:00

I was sooo excited when i saw this video, coz i have been waiting fer it like forever. That && also since Trey Songz is in it, so thats what i've been doin all day long watching videos apart from reading fan-fictions of course. I needed to update aniwaes so here i am with a new update, i like ne-yo's new album "The Year of the Gentleman" i think thats what its called. I've heard some of the tracks of the album and i have to say ne-yo has come back with another great one. Apart from that i definitely cannot wait fer Trey Songz new joint too!! yup2..

Aiite so its obvious i have nothing else better to do than update about a video, thats bcoz i don't have nothing much to say. My life is as mundane as ever, all i'm excited about is when Bb comes back this coming monday that && also i'll be starting my new job on monday too. Bb says he'll fetch me after work so i'm practically over the moon, i miss him too much already. You guys can bet i'll be having him on lock-down, no more going to overseas fer him!! None i tell ya! He cannot go and leave me here looking like i lost my cat, i'm sooo bored i cld die because of it!

So anyways Bestie got a new job too! At a daycare centre in Ubi, thats just like awesome! i can't wait to go shopping with her!! She said the job is quite hard coz u gotta have patience especially dealing with kids and babies too! It must be hard taking care of someone else's responsibilities, I wish her all the best though. I also told her that she can help me take a look out fer yan, since she work so near my Bb's house.

Onto other things, i realised that in this generation a lot of people are getting married mad young like its going out of style. I really just don't get why? why are they in such a hurry to get married? I mean what are they rushing to get to? I get that maybe they have been with their Boo's for so long but i have been with Yan fer quite sometime too does that mean we have to get married too? I mean get this some of them got married at the age of 18-20 & i'm 20 this year and i just feel that there are lot of things i still wanna achieve. Plus i still want my freedom, i definitely am not ready to be a wife let alone a Mother, in fact looking at my mother i feel very insecure. Even my cousin who got married early this year, his 30 and his wife is 20. When my aunt told me that i was like, Say What?? and she told me that the girl is the one who wanted to get married quickly, i was still basking with the fact that she was the one who initiated to get married early.

Forget the ones that are "instant" marriage because well they don't really have a choice, but the ones that are willing are just something i'm still trying to understand. Some of them don't even have the means and they're rushing the marriage, when i mean the means that means the ones that aren't financially stable yet. Its soo irritating! Why i say this is because you are putting a burden on your parents, yes your parents are the ones with the loans just so YOU can get married and if your the guy that's even worse! You should have saved ENOUGH money so that you won't bother your parents. I mean u know u have just finished your NS, which means your carreer has just started, that makes u FINANCIALLY UNSTABLE! How can you not think all this beforehand?? Wow.. so irresponsible. I sympathise with the parents.. i hope i learn from this and not make the same mistake because i of course do not want to burden my mother anymore.

Aiite enuff about this, i'm getting worked up about something that has nothing to do with me.

i'm outs.

urs tRuly,

♥ ct.riaH. ♥

♥ I finished crying in the instant that you left. And I can't remember where or when or how. And I banished every memory you and I have ever made. ♥

I love my frenster layout.

2008-08-30T13:44:00.004+08:00

Very simple larh sey *Simple things is what my heart beats for..* and i'm actually thingking of changing my blog layout again. Just coz i'm sick of that pics above, plus i'm itching to edit a whole other pics.. oh well.. nanti lah.. When i'm feeling creative and very "rajin" then i will change my layout. Aiite i have to admit i'm feeling very lonely right now, because of obvious reasons of course. I never knew how much yan have influenced my life and the impact he has permanently imprint on it, i miss him terribly and i can't help but feel cynical when his in a country thats known to be somewhat "keras" or maybe i've just been watching way too much scary Thai movies. Speaking of which i went to catch the *4bia* muvee last tues with cuzzie Ida, again free tickets, shiok larh sey asik tgk free muvee jek... Plus i still have 1 moore set of free ticket muvees that i'm waiting to catch with Bb. Back to topic, that *4bia* movie has four different stories to it and personally for mee i think the last storee is the most scariest among the other three and lemme tell u that i unashamedly screamed my lungs out when it came down to the scary parts. Yes i was being a scary ass but i can't help it, if yan was there i wld have clunged to him fer dear life, don't get me wrong i loove scary movies and i was actually the one who sugested to watch *4bia* but the sound effects always gets to me. aiite enuff bout these scary shit, i seem to have trouble sleeping at night lately don't ask me why.

So anyways lucky fer me yan kols me every now and then, told me he bought a prepaid card in thailand so that he is able to kol back home. I should feel grateful that i at least get to hear his voice but really it isn't enuff becoz we only talk fer less then five mins, its soo frustrating because everytime i pick up my fone i suddenly realised his not here and i can't kol him whenever i want to. I told you i'm too attached to him, even though sometimes i feel like screaming at the top of my lungs at him to give me my space but i miss his constant naggings. On the plus side i love the fact that i can go anywhere and go home anytime i want without him constantly badgering me to come back home at a specific time, oh well i'm weird like that besides i have to be opstimitic. Well life is full of ups and downs, the only way we can survive it is to go through it. Go through the pain, so we would be humbled by life and not take things for granted all the time.

See i always have these weird musings that i have to typed down.. So onto other relevant things i can't wait till i start working at my new job and i'm sooo happy with the travelling benefits i wld gain. Coz ya'll know how i love travelling and even though i might not get to travel a lot, the fact that i could travel every year to each different country is like soo effing awesome to me. Oh && get this i can also bring my friends along with me if i plan to go fer holiday and of course the best part is, u need only pay fer da tax not the ticket flight. you might be paying moore than me but only just a tad bit, but really ticket flights can cause u up to a thoudsand dollars but if u go with me u only pay the tax which usually cost u up to 200 to 300 bux. Trust me its worth it. Coz if u don't get a discount u have to pay both the tax and the ticket flight. Aiite enough about the travelling bit, i love the pay too.. i'm not gonna reveal it here but its more than 1.4K and that does NOT include my allowance pay.. So imagine how much money i will have in a month?? So much lah sey... i'm sooo excited. Lemme just inform u that the job wld be very DEMANDING, not the laidback type but really i'm young i'm sure i can cope especially if i keep thingking about the money i wld bring home. YeeeHaaa!....

aiite nuff said, i'm outz!

urs truly,

♥ ct.riaH ♥

♥ Two o'clock and I wish that I was sleepin,Your in my head like a song on the radio.. All I know is I gotta get next to you.. ♥

Happy&&Sad at the same time....

2008-08-24T18:11:00.000+08:00

Aiite2... i know i told u i wld update pics fer da NDP, but i'm back now and i will update all those pics u guys are missing out on. SO guess what??? i got the FREAKING job!!! im fucking DELIRIOUS!!! but i'm sad coz i can't share this happy news with BF, coz he aint here in SG he went to Thailand fer NS. I'm soo sad.. and yes i cried, hey you would too if ur significant other is gone fer not 1,2,3 days but 3 FUCKING weeks!!! What the hell am i supposed to do 3 freaking weeks without him here?? I keep replaying the "No Air" song on my mp3, phone&& PC sia.. coz NOW i totally know how it feels when Jordin sang the part when it says "But how do you expect me, to live alone with just me coz my world revolves around you, its so hard for me to breathe.." Damn if thats not how i feel right now. No contact ok?? 3 FREAKING weeks? haizzzzzzz... here's an advise to girls out there DO NOT DATE NS MEN!!!! and when i say this i mean DURING their 2 years of serving the nation. Well unless ur as patient as ehem.... ME! ehk seriouslah sey, when ur dating an NS men theres so lil time for you to spend time with each other.. especially if YOUR working also. Damn Irritating, but you know what they say *Time apart, makes the HEART fonder...* i guess thats true...

Aiite so apparently this post was supposed to be updated Thursday night but somehow, someway my post went missing, so i got fed-up and just shut down everything but i'm back now and i actually just came back from having breakfast with 2nd sis who blanjered us burger king. I had the breakfast king with turkey bacon. yummie yum! We ate at KakSha's workplace which means we take away the breakfast meal walked from the Tamp Int to KakSha's workplace && stayed until 2.30 pm fer KakSha to finish work, Coolness. So now i'm famished &&ready to BLOG. I Think i'm gonna do 2 seperate updates coz this one will be consist more on the NDP Pics.. so here goes...

In the bus

KakNa's friend who was the one who had the free tickets, Maisarah is the name.

Kakna was very into the whole celebrations. coz she was the one who blew fer us our "lollipop" baloon.
10 to 11 thousand people show up fer this. (if i'm not mistaken)

the sponsors up at the stage.

look at how BIG their smiles are..

ooh.. seems like that guy, wants a bite of Kakna's sandwich.

my all time favourite from LJS, Combo 1 please and the nachos cheese on the side.
we sat at the white section, hence us showing the white side of the "lollipop" balloon.

the product of us taking part in making the singapore flags with our "lollipop"balloon.

It rained on us, so KakNa was quick to take out the "Ponchor" that was provided inside the goody bag that they gave us.
I told u she was soo into the celebration.
Bestie is just being the typical drama-queen that she is.
The parachuters. It looks fun.

The SG Flag!!

I love this!! It was sooo Beautiful!

It was like somwhow Allah knew we were celebrating our nation's berfday and blessed us with a rainbow after the rain.

nightfall and all we can do is anticipate the fireworks.

there it is!!!!

unfortunately by the time the fireworks came my camera battery went flat on me, i had other shots but all of them were blurred and ugly. So yah... My bad yall... oh &&in case yall were wondering this wasn't the NDP at Marina Bay. This was the picnic celebration at the padang that Young NTUC organised.. It was fun though, but this one BIG Malay Family sitting right behind us was damn kecoh and LOUD. Literally.. When i said BIG, i meant they were like more then 10 of them there... Their Nenek & Atok also came..

So aniwaes.. i think i shall stop here with this update. Wait fer it people.

urs truly,
♥ ct.riaH ♥

♥ So let them pull,Let them pull at the seams.Don't they know what it means,To be young and in love like that? Who are they to decide If it's wrong, if it's right? To be young and in love like that? ♥

I'm excited!

2008-08-09T03:33:00.006+08:00

I am excited fer two things, 1 bcoz well my sis's friend has free tickets to NDP tomorrow and i'm bringing bestie along. tWo becoz i have an interview on this coming monday, actually i'm both excited and nervous fer the latter. i dunno if i'll be able to meet the standards of the employer, i'm really keen on this job, i wld gain lots of experience from it && it be my first stable and permanent job. I hope i do get it because i not only want it fer da sake of getting a job, i want the job because it will benefit me in lots of ways. I just hope i wont stutter during the interview, i must convince them that i'm right for it && if they do employ me i wldn't dissappoint them in fact they will benefit from it. Even though i have no experience i'm willing to learn.

Mannn... FYI i just gotten back home actually. Kakna treated us fer supper and not only that she finally bought her x-box 360. Woohoo! i dunno why i'm excited but i am cuz i wanna play too! Its fucking worth it, its only 500 bux includes all the set. Its fully modified, it has its headset to play online with other players, wireless controller && he gave her 8 free games which she can choose from. Originally he was only suppose to give 4 free games but since abg aad was a regular customer, he decided to give another 4. Coolness! i'm excited!

I'm actually already sleepy,so i'mma leave ya'll with da pics we took just now && since i haven't been updating i will post the pics of NDP tomorrow night. Hopefullylah... i'm not sure yet. cuz i have to do some re-search on this new job fer my interview on Mon. So just wait and see.. aiite people??

until then enjoy the pics.

In the lift.I look soo decent with my specs.

i dunno why abg aad looks like a prawn....

she's trying to be a PSP girl.(that's right girl,do your thang... -_-' )

Omigod! this was soo candid! i was busy on the fone while watching KakSha playing!! look at us both soo frustrated!

Kakna didn't like the flash. it was too bright!!

i decided to take abg aad pic coz he took the last pic of me and kakSha without warning.

Kaksha finally gave up and ask abg aad fer help.

wanted to take a pic of kakna at a different angle.

i dunno why i took this pic.

random foto.

whats that beside kakna?

lets take a closer look. thats right, x-box 360!

another random pic,kakSha's freshly dyed hair. i loove the color!
yeah thats all fer the morning. i fucking sleepy now. my pillow and bolster is calling me fer attention. so imma catch some zzzzzzzzzz's. be back tomorrow.

peace!

♥ ct.riaH ♥

♥ You believe, and you doubt,You're confused and got it all figured out.Everything that you always wished for.Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours,If they only knew. ♥

Yay!! new Layout__ i HEART it+++

2008-08-04T19:25:00.003+08:00

i'm in loove with PSP v.9, its fucking awesome. now i can edit my pictures! wooh! i'm lovin it! i still need to find the photoshop cs2 cd though. just so i can have access to different types of editing. muahahaha..

i'm not gonna update much though. cuz i'm not in a updating mood, but just so u know i finally watch "the dark night" and its fucking awesome lar! like really. && fer me to say this is something cuz i don't really like batman and i wasn't even interested to watch it but damn it was that good, its soo damn long though and totally worth my "again" free movie ticket. muahahaha.. awesome.

i love my new layout. its bright. but i love it. well until my mood strikes. i will update soon.

peace.

♥ ct.riaH ♥

♥ I wish I could rip out a page of my memory, Cuz I put too much enegry in him and me. Can't wait 'til I get through this phase, Cuz it's killing me. Too bad we can't re-write our own history. ♥

hello2...

2008-07-12T11:03:00.000+08:00

i have been gone long enuff, i shall update this not so happening blog of mine. but really i don't mind, cuz i've been blogging since i was 15. its moore like a ranting "haven" for me. so most of the tyme i blog fer me. niwaes mother's coming back home this sunday, after 2 weeks of partaying at home without her occasionally ragging on me is sooo FUCKING fun! but yeah, it was good while it last. in other words i enjoyed it and me and my sisters had a blast! muahaha...

hopefully she did buy the pods, we specifically asked her to buy. who wants to share with me??? eh. this choc biscuits are not fer sale in sg ok??. ooh, yEuL i think u wld remember it coz i think i did gave it to eu the last time i went Australia or was it New Zealand? i aint too sure. and i'm sure bestie noes it too.. hehehe... i might be generous enuff to share with the people i LIKE. GET THIS people i like only. if ur not LIKED by me can forget it ok??? muahahaha!!! *evil smiles*

aniwaes so what have i been doing for the past two weeks with mother's absence?? nothing much.. bb came over a couple of times and we hung out. sisters and me went out a couple of times and came back home in the wee hours of the morning, shiok lar sey.. on the day we sent our mother to the airport fer her departure was the same day we came back home at 4 am in the morning. we went to mustafa centre and boy did i feel like i wasn't in sg? i mean i've been there before is just that whenever i do go there (which is not frequent) it never fails to make me feel like i'm not in my country. ooh! i have to say, the trip there wasn't wasted cuz i finally get to find my "POP TARTS" eh people this is not ur normal pop tarts oke! this is *thee* "POP TARTS" i was soooo fucking delirious when i found it!!! i was actually a bit down cuz i didn't know what i wanted, and my sis wanted to cheer me up so she said she wanted to treat me on anything that i liked. i was upset coz i cldn't find anything that seem to entralled me, so there i was just aimlessly going down the aisle one by one &&like magic this one shelf (it was the top shelf) was stacked filled with "POP TARTS" boxes!!! it really looked like it was magically glowing with gold flakes (ok i have a very wild imagination, so what??)&& just like that i felt like a kid in a candy store♥♥.. muahaha.. i practically ran up to it grabbed it and shouted at my sister "OMIGOD AKAK!!! LOOK WHAT I FOUND!!!!!*POP TARTS*!!!!!!!! ME WANT!! ME WANT!!!!" she looked at me like i had two-heads and i was shaking my head up && down and if my sister had the imagination like i did she probably thought she saw my toungue hanging down like a puppy while shaking my head up && down. hahaha... hey! who knows? maybe i was??? so back to the topic we did buy it and it cost us 5 bux. there were 8 pieces in 1 box and it was FUCKIN worth it!!! its soooo nice!!!!! nah scratch nice, its FUCKING delicious!!!! ok if u guys don't know what i'm talking about lemme show u..

looks yummie rite??? well they didn't have this flavour larh.. they had chocolate cinnamon. my sis wasn't sure if that was nice, so we bought the apple struddle instead. next time imma buy the chocolate cinnamon!! haizzzz... if only they had the choc fudge flavour, i wld have SOOO buy it!! No questions needed!! haiz.... i might have to *POP* one in the oven now. yeah people it needs to be heated before eating, its like a breakfast on the go. you can pop it the microwave too! its like ur replacement of cereal. if ur in a hurry and u can't eat ur breakfast, u just pop one in the oven/microwave while u get ready and after that just eat it while going to work/school or wherever ur headed. YUMMIE!! it can be a snack too! hehehe...see i can soo be a PROMOTER fer this. I can be a "POP TART" girl! *winx*

aiite before i get carried away lets go to another subject, last thursday went to sim lim coz Kakna wanted to window-shopped fer an X-box 360. she wanted to check fer prices, see if she shld buy online instead or what. a lot of the shops didnt have x-box 360 cuz right now sg is on a psp crazed, so we did't have a lot of price range. && the ones who did sell it cost about $500 && upp, yah i know damn expensivekan?? ok fer kakna i guess cuz she can save her money and usually don't need to buy a lot of other things like us "mentel" girls. aiite check this she actually wants to buy both x-box 360 and PS3, GILER-arh!! her reason is bcoz some games that she liked can only be played in x-box 360 && hence buying both. well i don't mind, cuz i can play too!! *winx* though i'm not really a game-freak girl. but lately i been playing the psp like crazy!! my latest addiction is this tennis game, yah2 i know lame but fun♥ lah sey!! when ur really frustrated that tennis ball can be ur reliever, u just imagine smacking that ball across the net to someones face. e.g that current co-worker thats been annoying you,demanding boss or UNAPPRECIATIVE BF, tsk-tsk. back to topic, kakna was dissppointed but just when all luck seem to seize,abg aad && kakna found this shop which was having a sale on PS3's. there were two shops currently having sales, so kakna was a bit excited. the prices were acceptable so we all decided to check it out. yeah, before that me and my 1st sis sat down cuz kaksha seemed to be having back pains due to her slip-disc,&& so as per-usual while we wait fer them to browse around we cam-whored.

happy2 us♥

wanna give my sister's "longkang" 1 dollar???

no forehead us

i lovee♥♥ my ORANGEnails

it looks like my sis is sleeping but she's actually putting back her make-up in her bag.

girl's who love♥ tHee camera, don't care where they are. they'll just snap3!

i dunno what i was doin..

i purposely took her picture like this.

for some reason i LIKE♥ thiss picture.

very candid pic,wasn't really ready.

i actually puposely post these pictures to compensate my "NZ" pictures that i have yet to post. really i will upload them when i have LONG patience fer uploading, hehe.. so please just bare with me for a bit moore longer. oh yah, those pictures are actually just a few of them that we took. there are moore but i was too fucking lazy to upload it. wait2 i'm not done yet. now fer pictures of us 3 sisters.

Kaksha doesn't like this pic. but look at kakna CHEESING!♥♥

she still didn't like this one.

squish together.

ok i don't seem enthused anymoore.

starting to bore me.

last but not least the couple♥♥.

ok so in thee end we didn't buy anything, well kakna didn't buy anything. but she is set to buy PS3 next month, so we shall see. after that we went fer our dinner at our fav place. && no i didn't take any pics coz i was to busy enjoying my laksa♥♥, fish-soup♥♥ was superr lar sey.. and i prefer the char♥ kway♥ sotong♥ then the fried wanton.

we reached around 12, took the bus home and i cam-whored again in the bus but like i said i have no patience fer uploading. so i guess my entry ends here but before i do, just wanna mention to yall that i changed my song again. i wanted a song that reflects how i feel &&this old joint from B2K is perfect♥♥.ya'll listen and tell me if its really what u girls want??*winx* oh yah i purposely didn't put Omarion's picture, just because i never really liked him and somehow he always annoys me. yah i'm weird like that.

oh yah another thing i can't help but post this too!! he soo fucking.... arghhh.. i really have no words to describe him..

♥ a BEAST i tell ya! a BEAST!! ♥

aiite until next time.

peace!

♥ ct.riaH ♥

♥ Whenever you wanna get down.
I'll be around, cause I'm in no hurry.
Again he said whenevever you feel in the mood,
To let me love you, I'll be here for you ♥

What Da hell??

2008-06-29T00:27:00.004+08:00

ok i'm fucking pissed! my dad is like soo annoying!! he gave our pc a virus!!! i have to reboot my pc becoz my anti virus trial has expired. so now i'm using the laptop instead and i hate using it, coz its damn "leceh" i mean i only like the fact that i can lie down on my bed with it but other than that its too freaking troublesome. i feel like chocking my dad, now i really can't update my pix, ok so i've been PROCRASTINATING the task but thats what i do. who would have thought i be in this predicament?

other than the fact that he gave the pc a virus, his also been hogging the damn pc the whole damn day for the past 2 weeks!!! i mean common, give it a break will ya?? haizzzz..

aiite, aiite imma stop.

i'll deal with the pc lata.

guess what i wanna talk about???

This pic......

how ignorant can u be Chris???

seriously....

and honestly who told you that fohawk was cute?? what happened to you chris brown? i'm dissapointed, i've long past gotten over the fact that u have bad taste in girls but common??? this whole trying to be grown shit is becuming annoying. the fact that u can be ignorant is a fucking turn off and plus ur CONTRADICTING urself boy. saying something u won't do and doing the exact same thing you said u wont be doing. ya know what, FUCK IT. i aint even gonna stress it.

i didn't get to see the BET awards, due to the fact that i aint got any cable but i saw a few bit here and there on the internet. congratulations fer winning best male artist award chris, i'm not sure u deserve it coz i wld have been glad if Trey Songz won instead but hey its ur luck.

i didn't really enjoy ur performance coz i was hoping fer moore but its aiite i guess coz i realised that ur heads gotten to BIG with all the attention u've been getting from ur lil FLING with ya-know-who so u were to preoccupied.

here's the video btw...

No i don't deny his dance mooves were awesome, and yes if ur wondering thats ciara. i was just hoping moore like he did on MTV Music awards last year. but its like what ever, ya know. i still can't stand his FOHAWK though. aiite enough talking about C.B fer now.

if u already don't know i'm actually looking fer a new job and i've been applying like crazy fer different types of positions, but i've been getting no response back so its getting frustrating. my latest application is at NUS but this time with my aunt's recommendation. i'm not sure if i'll get it but i'm praying hard i will. i need a new job soo bad. so here's me praying real hard. my last resort would be calling this agent's no. from my sister's friend, its like kelly services and job recruitment only not. so lets just hope i get the job at NUS, coz then it be a stable one since its a government job.

ooh i'm in loove with the new song on my blog. hehe.. and TYGA is FINE as hell. x'cept that he has too many tattoos, i mean i like them but not too much but hey to each his own.

oh yah i forgot to mention that on early june my family celebrated my 2nd sis berfday and since she was feeling generous kakna treated us (minus my dad though) to swensens in TM. yeah yeul i never saw u on that day!!! neither u or zimah. but i have to say it was damn pack. and big sis cldn't stop teasing me and this guy who was serving us. damn irritating. ok lah da guy was cute and kinda adorable coz he kept smiling this amusing smile like i got a sign that says "hey look at me, i'm a CLOWN" stamped across my forehead. WTF?? but whatever... and before u ask me, no i don't know his name nor do i remember his face now. but i did remember him looking younger than me but i'm not sure. so yeah...

oh well i'm not really too fond of guys right now, so i don't give two shits. no i don't want to talk about the BF, so lets not bother. i rather focus on getting my life on track again and then i'll deal with my misfortunes and why i'm such an idiot when it comes to him. so whoever is currently single, be content and go be happy with yourselves. learn to love yourself fully before you wanna jump into the next r'ship. trust me this is the best advise i'm giving yall. if you really don't believe me read this and tell me what you think??

Guys,
do u realize that the girl who is holding onto u now is PERFECT in her own special way? The way she laughs.. The way she sleeps.. The way she sulks.. The way she smiles.. The way she cries.. The way she thinks of you.. The way she tries to please you... The way she sacrifices for you.. The way she wants to understand you.. The way she's lovin you with all her heart!

Always remember that. She can always get up and walk away, getting someone else who can loves her more. There might be someone out there... who is willing to love her more than you are loving her now, fulfill her every needs and loves her as much as she loves you. or maybe loves her more than she loves you.. but definitely lovin her more than u do! For all you know, there might be already someone out there wooing her, be it from a distance or as a gentleman.. But she is rejecting, coz she believes in perfect love... for whom she will share her joys n tears together.. for whom she will promise to be faithful.. for whom she will commit herself into you..

To her,you're her perfect love!
Understand that guys, you might be thinking that the love is fading.. you can't find the freshness between the two of you.. everything is stale to you now.. everywhere seems the same to you.. you say "been there done that". so u went off looking for another...

Imagine this.. Behind her back, you're hugging and kissing another girl.. When you see her today, u do the same.. but you still see love in her eyes.. while others are just some flings. Do you feel the hurt? Can you feel the guilt?

For you must know... every new thing brings an excitement to us.. only to find the boredoom n sickness of it after we're so used being together.. She might not be feeling the hurt now, coz she won't know.. She might be feeling something's not right, coz she can sense.. but she's still holding on to you,

Not becoz she's stupid, not becoz she's dumb, not becoz she's a fool.. but becoz.. she believes u will not break her glass heart.. she believes u will not let her tears flow.. she believes u will keep your promises.. she believes this is love! She loves you not because you are pleasant looking, a sweet talker, or that you have the 5cs..

She loves you for who you are. Your every touch, every word you say, everything you do. She was born here imperfect.. everyone does! Only what she wants from u is almost perfect! and she knows she can't do it alone... it needs two hands to clap...

Guys,
For her, being the upmost girlfriend is to endure your every moves, your every moodswings, your every words.. and actions. Even dealing with the most unbearable pain she will bear it for your sake.. But once she knows that the time is up, she will leave you.. with the most unforgettable painful memories u both had, from the sweetest to the very last moment she had to leave, bcoz of

ur

doings..

Guys,
Cherish and appreciate your girl. Don't break her fragile heart. She is the only one who can love you this way. You won't wanna regret letting go of that special girl you have. For everything she has done for you, the least you can do is to give her unconditional love as she has given to you.. coz u should know, her love and sacrifice doesn't mean forever, when she had finally realised.. you not worth her love, she will leave u for the one whowell- deserved her love..

Guys,
dun ever leave the one u love, for the one u like.. coz one day.. the one u like will leave u, for the one they love...

after reading this i felt really unappreciated and very depressed. im sure a lot of you girls can relate to this. i dowant to be judgemental but its true, we woman are always discriminated by man and the sickening part is, we can't live with them and neither can we live without them. i feel soo conflicted but thats life yo, u win some, u lose some but in this case we woman are always at a weaker end.

a shame though.. REAL shame. i don't even want to think about it, so lemme stop here and go about my merry way.

peace.

♥ ct.riaH ♥

♥ All I know is baby, I try and try so hard ,To keep our love alive. If you dont' know me at this point, Then I highly doubt you ever will. I really need you to give me that unconditional love, I used to feel. And I keep on telling myself ,that you'll come back around, And I try to front like "Oh well", Each time you let me down. ♥

Can u believe it??

2008-06-22T06:52:00.004+08:00

ok so i went fer an interview yesterday fer dis scholarship programme, fer a diploma in business. its a fully sponsored education u see. so it was actually a great opportunity for me since i didn't get into admin in ite like i wanted to this year. i went there and big sis accompany me, it was at changi central park near expo. the scholarship has no bond but the catch was whoever sponsored us fer our education, we have to work fer them within those two years that we're going to be studying.

fer a full hour and an a half i spend waiting fer them to interview me, while filling up my application form. they took copies of my cert and ic. they gave us a briefing about how the programme works, what will we be doing, how are we gonna manage in between schooling and working. they explain to us about the allowances we will be getting fer the working hours we would be doing. i was sitting there processing the whole thing, to see if i really would gain opportunities from it which i really thought i would. the sponsors weren't the "law-yar ones" they were from top companies such as ritz carlton, shang ri la and nature farm to name a few.

after the 15 min briefing they told us to wait fer our interview to determine if we were short-listed fer da final interview with the sponsors and employers that we would be working fer but not like 5 mins later this woman came in holding only one application form and calling out only one name while pointing to me and the other applicant that were not short-listed.

i was sooooo dumb-founded?? i mean what the fuck yo?? you haven't even interviewed me!! how the hell did ya know that the other applicant is any better then me??you can't judge by reading ONLY my application form. you can only tell soo much by someone's application form??? i was fucking pissed. i waited fer moore than an hour and i didn't even get a 15 min interview?? there were 3 applicants there including me during that time and i was the first to come and the one who came the last was short-listed??? what did she have that i don't?? she wasn't even professional enough to wear something decent!! she wore a sleeveless top to an interview?!! she looked like she was ready to go clubbing!! ok i'm not trying to diss her but i felt like it was not fair. the least u could have done was interview me and then deliberate whether i was good enough to go fer the final interview.

that was sooo fucking un-PROFESSIONAL. i'm upset, coz i thought this could have been my big-break.

i mean common was it because u were in a rush? how is that my fault?? i came there within the hours that u stated to come. 2-5pm right? i came there around 3 and by the time u told me i wasn't short-listed it was a quarter to 5. it wasn't my fault, u were really unethical.

i can't believe i went all the way there and wasn't even interviewed, my spirit was dampened by your unprofessionalism and you can gurantee that i will be emailing one LONG complain letter to your company. i mean if you weren't going to interview any candidates, you should have just put on your ADV to just send the application form through email, that way i won't feel my heart burn and not only that i could have saved my bus fare.

i am utterly disgusted by this people, call urselves diploma holders but no skill at all in handling "sort of" customer service. tsk-tsk

on a better note BF has started working at mc'D and best of all he keeps sending me food from there. the other day on his first day after he finished worked which was 8 in the morning he sent over big breakfast to me house. nyehehehehe! ♥ i'm lovin it ♥ isn't this the life but definitely i won't eat it all the time. on ocassions is fine by me.

and i know i said i wld update my NZ trip pictures, but right now i think not. cuz its way past my bedtime and i'm sleepy.

so until the next update.

see ya.

peace

♥ ct.riaH ♥

♥ I know you think i'm young and naive, But you gotta trust in me to be strong and responsible 'Cause I think I’m in love ♥

its someone's berfday TODAY!

2008-06-20T22:26:00.006+08:00

hello my fellow bloggers, guess what?? today is my ana darLz berfday! she turned 18 today. awwww, noe what that means? it means we can go parrrrtayyyy. wohooo! coz someone is of legal age already. ya know what i just realised me and my girls haven't seen each other fer almost 6 months. not to mention my bitch ♥yeul♥, she's been pestering me to meet her and i haven't cleared my schedule yet, don't worry beb i will soon. ok? please don't be too upset with me.

anyways...

so in tribute to ana's berfday imma put her picture up, hehe. (jgn marah huh...)

♥ happy berfday sweetheart.♥

♥ the good old times.♥

ahhhh.. i miss my school life, seriously. i'm really dissappointed that i didn't get into higher nitec because they were overwhelmed with applications from all the students. i'm upset but things happened fer a reason and i've yet to accept them.

actually come to think of it, i miss all my friends. coz i hadn't been hanging out with any of them, besides bestie of course. i miss my old life, but as i have mentioned before in my last update nothing has been the same. i feel different and there are a lot of things i wished never changed. its hard fer me to adapt to changes, such a shame though.

ya know what i'm not even gonna stress it, someday; one day i will come to terms with it. so anyways, i done some changes to the blog. i have a new comment box at the end of every post so if u feel like leaving me a lovely comment pls do so by clicking on it. i wld definitely appreciate it soo much ♥__++

so bb hang out with me at my crib yesterday and apparently he went to jb and bought dvd's, so i finally get to see the infamous ♥panda kungfu♥ yippee! it's sooo fucking hilarious.and the panda reminds me of abg aad so much but kakna and bb said my eyes looked like the panda thanx to my beo-ti-fool eyebags! phhhhtt... *points middle finger* its like wadeva.

a random thought, i was browsing through my pics on my thumbdrive i found my holiday pics to ♥new zealand♥ i haven't upload it anywhere actually so i doubt you've seen it before, but i gotta tell u the scenery is fucking gorgeous. i miiss the place already. lemme just show u this beautiful waterfall.

♥ it looks like its straight from a postcard.♥

man i miss this place already, but really if i can go back i will. but before i go any further i think i might have to come back again later tonight because my sister is pestering me to watch some movee with her and she kinda pissed me off so i snapped at her. now i feel all bad. so imma sign off and come back later and hopefully i will update moore pictures i took in new zealand.

again i just wanna wish ana a happy berfday! hopefully u celeberated it with ur love ones.

take care ya'll.

peace.

♥.ct.riaH.♥

♥My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold. That was before a great depression kicked in and rocked us. And that was before the hurricane came in and stopped us.♥

it's ct BITCH!

2008-06-18T23:19:00.002+08:00

I swear Cherish don't get enough recognition, is fucking ridiculous. I swear there's like fucking moore dozens of artists who really DO HAVE THE FUCKING talent and just don't get anough recognition and when they don't get enough exposure we singaporeans seem to lose out on these great songs they have created and its like everywhere i go i seem to listen to the same song being played over and over again. Is fucking annoying i swear. I'm soo glad i went to search for fan boards on the internet because from there i got to know a whole bunch of other artists, fer example Trey songz he has a GREAT voice and is like.. ahhhh, lets just say ladies that his voice melts in ur ear not ur hands.. pun intended.

Seriously i'm not lying he has great songs too and its too bad Chris Brown gets moore exposure, i guess coz Chris has a preety face but really at the end of the day u do get tired listening to his whiny voice. DOn't get me wrong Chris can perform and all but when it comes to singing lately he hadn't been on PAR but hey thats just my own personal opinion, I love me some of Chris but enough is enough.

But before i get off track, i just want to inform you that this track your listening to on my blog is one of Cherish from their new album "the truth" in case you already don't know Cherish is the one who sang the song "killa" from the soundtrack of step up the streets. I really love these ladies, they are sisters by the way and they write their own songs. Other than Cherish and Trey Songz, i have to say that Steph Jones has also great vocals, i just hate to see this great talent go to waste. Seriously..

I mean i might not be fans of our local talent but that don't mean i can't recognise good talent when i see one. I love music just like the next person does, but it sickens me when the ones that get popular are the same people who seem to have more talent on the looks than their vocals. Phhht..But you know i'm not even gonna sweat it cos as far as i know im not gonna lose out on all these talents...

Anyways lately i'm in loove with Jordin Sparks, i don't know why because imma be honest and say that i didn't even follow her American idol journey but i found her really realistic. Again my personal opinion, i loove her personality and i definitely love her body size because i love the fact that she re-present no not plus size artist but normal size artist the kind of body that in actual real life actually exist because people are not naturally skinny. I admit i'm not skinny myself, i've bloated up, i do wanna slim down only like 5 kgs and then flatten my tummy. Thats it and i'm happy with myself.

I forgot to mention that i think i've become a bit fairer (nah.. i'm not conceited) but then i've come to accept and love my skin tone. I love the fact that i'm not soo fair like my other sisters i also come to accept that being a bit darker has it perks. Honestly i detest people that think highly of their fairer skin tone because people would always praise them of it, hey if u criticise my skin tone your critisizing God's creation. Its not my fault we're all sinners.

Ohhh...Don't you just hate when you meet an old friend or aquaintance and they seem to comment like "Woah look at you, you've seem bigger since the last time i seen you.." I'm like what the fuck?? Don't you got anything better to say than that?? Why can't you comment on something positive?? I mean don't you think we know what we're lacking off?? We don't need you rubbing it on our faces. Seriously be honest and tell me you don't feel like strangling people who don't have the enough common sense to be a bit moore tact. We aint perfect what do you expect? Sheesh.. i mean even if you aint say it in a harsh tone but still we get the meaning coz in other words your trying to say "Go to the gym, YOU ARE FAT!" Please... how much more ignorant can u be?

These people be pissing me off man (M.K.P.L btol), even Bb can be really insensitive towards my feelings and i would have to tell him off. I hate ignorant people, STOP BEING AN IDIOT will you?? I swear i don't understand what goes through their head. There's a difference when your being helpful and honest and just plain obnoxious and don't think that we just can't seem to take positive criticism, its the way you convey the message that will determine whether its okay or not.

Okay honestly people these are just some random rantings i seem to be frustrated with lately, and no i haven't met up with these type of people since like forever coz as of late i rarely go out. Its just random thoughts roaming through my head, so bare with me.

I missed on some stuff on the last post so i wanted to make sure i cover it this time, so let me read through it... Oh yah did i mention that i dropped Bb's bike one time?? It was sooo fucking funny. I think i dropped it last month, nah i didn't do it on purpose. Are you crazy? He would have killed me, but anyways i dropped his bike. How? Bb was gonna get some "lauk" from his nenek's house and he asked me to wait at the carpark with his bike. So me being the "miang" me wanted to sit on his bike, i was straddling the bike and i lost my balanced and it didn't help that the bike also swayed onto my right side, me being always miss "blur sotong" i didn't grasp the handle fast enough. Since from the beggining i know i cldn't handle the weight of the bike, so me "miss toyer" (hang ta wau, yeye a.k.a. Hang toyer) and the bike swayed to the right and dropped like a "nangker s.p? busok" it was too funny coz i menjerit like "KL MENJERIT" i think the whole block could hear me. I was sooo embarrased and my back hurt like HELL, luckily my soulja boi hadn't went up yet he came back and he gave me a small smile, a bit guilty pon ader (i'm laughing while i'm typing this, mind you.) he told me he didn't put the stand properly so that could be partly the reason why the bike pon sway to the right side.

Ever since then i never sit on that bike alone, phobia bite me in the ass something crazy. Whats even funny is that i laughed so hard and on the spot i msged bestie and called my sis, told both of them what happened. It was soo funny, seriously i was soo fortunate that only a car with a family inside was there. I think they too laugh, how did this girl "jatuh" also they don't know, seriously i'm really "miss toyer". Oh yah before Bb went up to get the lauk, he said never mind sayang just sit at the void deck. It also didn't help me feel better when there were new scratches on the paint work, i felt super guilty man... and on top of that the footrest where you put the pillion foot on "bengkok" really bad. Bb told me that his dad ask him did he dropped his bike lately, Bb lied and sad no. Awww... so sweet kan, kan?? Siti why you sooo miss dumb2...?? Okay2 i learned my lesson, i will never seat on that bike unsupervised. Happy??

Hehe... i think that had to be one of the funniest highlights of my life, dropping a bike while your on it. Eyy damn painful tau... that fucking bike is not "ringan" okay?? The tank dah la "besau" than when it dropped the bike's weight was on me like something heavy man, luckily Bb wasn't mad at me coz i was convinced that he would be coz ya know thats like his most prized possesion. He told me that he was just glad nothing happened to me. Awww... sweet ehk? I'm convinced now that Bb is able to have some human feelings. I'm soo mean i know.. but hey! his moore meaner okay!!

Look at me getting all hyped up, lemme stop though.. unfortunately as of now Bb is mad at me. So we're kinda not speaking to each other. Oh well.. i'll just take it as how it is.

I'm just gonna stop here though coz until next time wait fer my next update!!

But before i do i want you to see this... coz its HILARIOUS!!

.S.T.R.I.P. - Sisters Taming Rihanna's Island Pussy. =P

peace!

♥.c.t.riah.♥

♥.I would risk it all for you ,to prove my love is true.I'll build a wall around my heart, that will only break a part for you.♥

Finally..

2008-06-16T22:07:00.005+08:00

Ok2 Fellas, i'm back.. and i swear this time is going to be one LONG good entry!! also i have pictures to SHARE!!!! Yay me!

Aiite so last Saturday went to the movies, i had a double date with sis. Which means Abg Aad and Yan was there too. We went to see Narnia the Prince Caspian and boy it was worth my FREE ticket, yes Free i tell ya. Although i can't remember how i got the free ticket. We watched the midnight show at TM and it ended around 3 am in the morning, me and yan went our seperate ways obviously, while sis and abg aad took the cab back home. I ended up coming back home at 5 am in the morning coz bb said he wanted to hang out and converse with me since his been busy with NS and all. He told me that he be working at Mc'D as the rider at afghan, which prolly mean that i won't be able to spend my weekends with him like i want to but i told him that it was okay and that i might bring yana to hang out there with him. So i wasn't so concern about it although i might miss him terribly. Oh well..

Aniwaes i was waiting fer Bb to send me the pictures of his POP day, finally he did send me the pictures yesterday i am proud to present you the pictures because well i'm proud to see my Baby finally graduating from his BMT. Mind you this was like 2 or 3 months back, so u can tell i'm sooo late. Better late than never i say, niwaes me, sheereen and bb's mum went to see him march, i was actually hesitant to go because i thought it would be akward ya know i mean i hung out at Bb's crib while his mum was there and went out with the whole family but that was different. How?Bb was there, so wen he pratically begged me to go i had to put aside my akwardness and just go with the flow. Fortunately i enjoyed it, his mum as i've always known her was very friendly and his sister was great too. The best part was that okay this might sound mean but we made fun of all the soldiers coz they looked soooo FUNNY. We made jokes and criticised everyone, Bb's mum was like super fun so i was glad it didn't turn out bad. When it was time for photo taking we practically ran over to Bb coz we only had 10 -15 mins of it and to top it off it started drizzling.

So here comes the pictures..

See that big smile on his mum's face?? Shereen noticed it and comment on it the conversation goes like this -

Shereen : Eh Ibu, Lebar nmpk senyum?? Tk pernah2 senyum lebar??

His mom: Alah aper salahnyer...

Shereen: Oh pat Abg senyum lebar2... Hmph.

His mom just roll her eyes and i just stand there giggling..

Look at my hideous fringe???

Adek,Bb and mom.

Helping him put on his cap.

Momma's BOY!!

So Black...

Stop it lar.... i hate that stupid pose of his.

Adek and Kak ct.

Bb's mom was supposed to be in the pic.

Kene cut off muker ku.

Ni macam aru best.

I dunno what i was thingking when i cut my fringe off.
Last picture.

Actually there was supposed to be pictures of the parade but i don't know what happen to it, so i just have to settled with these then. Bb kept saying "your hair ehk, last warning tau.." ish ader ker patut?? Seriously i think i wanted some bangs and it turned out really suckie. haha

Too bad we didn't take any pictures on our movie night, it would have been nice. Really i think my life has taken a 180 degree turn over, i seem to not enjoy a lot of things. Example taking pictures, taking care of myself and my relationship with my mother has gone downhil. After that fight we had and two months of not conversing with each other really changed my perspective. I know i shouldn't feel this way but i know now that my wish to have a normal family and to have that kind of bond with my parents will never happen. Reality has slapped me across my face because i realise that my parents are not those parents that can sit down and talk rationally with their children. I promised myself that no matter what happens my children will not feel the way i feel right now, i will not neglect them no matter how busy or tired i am. Insyallah i will learn from my parents mistakes, this i vow to myself.

There's a lot more to my fight with mother but i rather not eloborate, i'm just dissappointed and trust me to be dissappointed with your own parents is not a good feeling i long have understood that Bb's parents and mine are just too different. I envy them and their closeness, i envy that Bb's younger sisters can joke around with their father, i envy that they can hug and hold their father. I envy that their mother is sooo understanding you can talk boy talk with her and it seems that the only person that understand my pain is bestie, because she has seen how Bb's family interact with each other and we both long to be apart of something wonderful. I mean i understand they also have their fights but they still will get along with each other no matter what.

Oh well, "ada pergi, ada balik"

Off to another topic i long to leave Singapore and live in Australia, i'm seriously wanting to leave this god foresaken country. I'm sorry if this is offensive but its my blog i don't care if you don't like what i'm saying, I told mother that if the time is right lets just migrate. My aunt has settled in Brisbane and mother will visit them this july, i long to go back there again. There's nothing here to look forward too except? work,work,work... We are slaves in our own country why not live in someone else's when their pay is soo much better than here. right?

I told bestie that and she was upset, i know beb and i'm sorry but seriously i made up my mind. It will hurt but time will heal and what about yan u people wonder? He had told me he won't leave singapore for nothing it is here he belong and plus he didn't just served the country fer 2 whole years and then migrate to another country. So i said? aiite, its coo.. its coo.. I'll just have to leave him behind and i'm not gonna look back. Yes i love him but if my family is going to migrate i aint living here all by myself because of a guy, thats just plain stupid. I ain't even sure if his the one, plus u know what they say if u leave that person and he comes back he was always meant to be with you.

"Carpe diem" is my new motto, its in latin but i won't tell what it means. hah.. I'm soo mean i know, i think i've matured some. I learn to respect my sister's moore and honestly i loove♥ them soo much even if i won't say it outloud i really do love them. I know they will have my back no matter what. I'm a pain in the ass thats no doubt, i think that will alwaes be in my persona but aside from that i'm also inquisitive and witty and i love that about me. I think in order to love someone else you have to learn to love yourself fully even your flaws, everybody has flaws and i think its beautiful if you just accept it and try to improve. Nothing is better than understanding yourself if you embrace it, you will find that you can accept someone else's and be more receptive towards other people's bad and good habits.

Sheesh thats deep stuff, i have to many thoughts.

This is like a therapy fer me, the past six months had been really hard for me and to tell you the truth no one really knows how i feel. I never really just opened up to anyone, its hard. I try but i'm not good at explaining myself, i cower away from fights that gets to much i guess because i don't really like confrontations. I can sit down and talk but once it turn into an argument and it becomes heated i can't stand it and i just walk away. That's a bad habit i know but as i said i have flaws and i'm trying to embrace it and improve.

Hopefully i will because i ain't getting younger, i'm not trying to be perfect i just want to be better.

Well i guess this is all for now because i'm running short on words.

so till my next update,

peaCe.

.cT.riaH.

ps:there may be a lot of typo errors but i'm to fucking lazy to re-check so just bare with me.

♥.Now you can wait your whole life tryna change, What the fear from what it's been, You may have put your whole life into a man, Loving what you thought that could've been. ♥

I used to...

2008-06-07T22:04:00.009+08:00

I used to be soo keen to write down my thoughts,
now i'm just to lazy to write down anything.
It feels like nothing seems to inspire me to blog...

I was looking back on my other journals,or blogs and
i cringed looking at it. Just because my English was
horrendous! Not that now is any better, but i really cringe..
Like BLEUGH!!!... What the hell was i thingking??

But anywhoos.. Now that i'm here,lets not dwell on my
writing skills shall we?

What shall i blog about?
Oh yah, the past year i've been visiting
Boards like Fan boards, Sharing with them
of their likings on other artists and since
last year i was like having a CB craze i went
searching for Fan Fictions of him.

It was pretty cool actually,the people i met there was
really fanatics!and its even cooler because they live where
he lives so they get to meet him.
As for me i can only dream to be in the same air as him,but nevermind i'm determined that if he comes to SG and
have a concert i wld go and watch him even if the tickets wld cost me a lifetime!!

I know i'm crazy.. but as of now,my liking fer him has
mellowed down just because he BROKE my heart.
Haha..kidding but i think its time that i moved on and
just settle down.

Oh ya btw CB its Chris Brown for u slow people...

On the real side,there's some interesting storee and
there are really talented Fans out there that can be
great Authors.No kidding.

They really have the talent,and its worth wasting a
few hours of my time reading their stories..coz i'm really
not reader and the only books that i won't find the trouble to
read over and over is Harry Potter.

So that shows how Good the Stories are.

Oh well to each his own.

On that note think i'm gonna go read
one.

Cya!

uRs tRuLy,
.cT.riaH.

♥ You changed my whole life, Don't know what your doing to me with your love.. I'm feeling all Superhuman, you did that to me.. A Superhuman heart beats in me.. ♥

Too late...

2008-03-01T03:59:00.004+08:00

I always wondered how i ended up the way i am today.
Is it the actions we made that defines who we are?

I've never felt more restless then i feel now,
The constants bickering we have just seem so pointless.

I could care less if you think ur actions would phase me,
i'm sick of spitting words that would only end up being
twisted into a different meaning.

I'm calling it quits now.

I'mma do me.
and when i succeed, it will be NO THANKS to you.
SHAME on YOU.

I'm sorry for not being perfect.
but i learn that being perfect is overrated.

Why be perfect, when you can be unique and different?

What i do know is that i feel sorry for you.
Because you fail to recognise that you have only pushed me
further away from you.

I hope one day u realise that what you have done, you
only brought it on yourself.

urs sincerely,

::.ct riah.::

Two OO eight

2008-01-01T01:56:00.001+08:00

A happy NEW year has just begun.
and i just came back.

Yep2. decided to just drop by on my dead
Blog. as u can see i changed my layout, like
a month ago.

and i actually did a post about Bb's berfday.
i just haven't post it. and it has yet to be
finished Plus i still have to put up the
pixies.

aniwaes,i just realised sumthing.
throughout 2oo7, i have only posted 15
posts in this blog. Can u believe it? haha.
u Definitely cn tell that i wasn't up for
blogging.

But i have to say though, 2007 was one
of the BEST years i have ever had.
One of those years that i can reflect and say
"yep,that year i have been there and done a lot of
things that i am proud of!" big smiles.

Its too bad i didn't record down the things i did
during this year. coz it would have been nice to
be able to reminisce. oh well. sum things are
just better left unsaid.

Speaking off, ive been thingking about
making another account in frenster.
yep2.
since that sumone decided to delete
my previous account.

i've been meaning to do it.
is just that i'm not sure if i want to.

I guess i have to ponder a bit moore
into that subject.
and even wen i do make another account.
its gonna be OUR account.
Which means mine and Bb daRLz.

hmph.

I guess imma ask his opinion.

oh well.

Since its a new year and all.
i need to find me a JOB.
my money is running low.
and i mean real low.
PLUS just sitting at home
is driving me nuts!.
Even wen i still have the pc
and especially the net to kip
me occupy. it still

eurghhhh...

Just FREAKING-ly getting on my GOD
damn nerves.

Prays hard fer A job.

oh btw got my results.
i'm not sure wat to tell eu people tho.
coz i pretty am sure that i didn't do dat bad.
but i didn't do very good either.
and plus with the number of subjects
i was exempted from.
i don't realy know how they count the credits
that i earned.

I asked my lecturer about it, but she said
she had to get back at me on Friday instead.
as she wasn't sure herself.

i guess on Friday i shall wait.

oke. as far as i'm concerned i have typed
a lot of things that have been on my mind as of late.
so i shall stop here.

oh and before i go.

i shall give u a peek at what i gave my sOuLjabOi.

If ur blind enuff not to see it.

then too bad.

oh well.

Cya soon.

pEaCe.

uRs tRuLy

.cT ria)-(.

*He brings life to my fantasies. Sparks a passion inside of me. Finds the words when I can not speak. In the silence, his heartbeat is music to me*

Yesh,I'm inLoveE.

2007-11-14T14:08:00.000+08:00

YEah! one moore week, to his berfday!
I can't wait!.
Altho i haven't begun finishing the stuff
that i'm gonna give him.
I am still vey excited.
heh.

i think this year's berfday for him is
gonna be a blast.
I even ask him to take leave from work.
Just so i can spend the whole day with him!

Since next month he'll be goin back to
camp in Tekong.
I'm soooo gonna mish him.

but a Man's gotta do what a Man must do.

I'll probably be looking fer a new job soon.
Exams are cumin quick.
and i rily don't have much time to waste.
I just have Bb's berfday to get over with.
Then i'm done.

i can start studying like cRazy.
Lets hope that i pass and
at least get 3.5 GPA.
Cuz i can't afford to fail and not
go to higher nitec.

Here's me praying very hard.

Oh well.

Until his berfday,

i shall blog again SOON.

pEacE.

uRs tRuLy,

.cT ria)-(.

*Do you know what you've started? I just came here to party.But now we're rocking on the dancefloor. acting naughty.Your hands around my waist. *

++SomeoOne berFday Is cUmin++

2007-11-01T16:23:00.000+08:00

Yesh! I'm back to BLAB again..
and seriously, i can soooo tell that
my BLOG is dead!. Hah!.

Oh well..

I still feel like blogging!
So BLOG i SHALL!

SO yesterday went shopping with BESTIE
at town! YIPPIES!!!
And the fact that almost all STORES are
havin SALES!! me and BESTIE went
BANANAS!!! tralalala!..

Also its beeen eeeons ago i went to town,
except for that day went i rebond-ed my hair.

But then that doesn't count coz, i didn't
get to shop like i did yesterday!

So yesterday was FREAKING-ly THE BEST!!

Altho i only like spent 47 bux on these items

-Wedges
-Flat ballet shoes
(only 15 bux for 2!)
-a Lizzy top
(2 for 20 bux)
-an A Ripcurl Wallet
($21.90)

i rounded it to 47 bux btw,
and the top i shared with bestie..
so the only expensive item i bought was the
wallet. Which i'm veryyy muchie in loOve with!..
heh.
I was in dire need of a wallet.
So sue me!.

but bestie ended up buying 3 shoes
2 from mondo (like me,but diff designs)
1 from this shop,i have forgotten the name.
pLentY of accesories.
and of coz a top like mine.

and guess how much she spend?
70 bux!

woah!
moore then me, coz ultimately she assumed
my spendin was moore due to my wallet.
heh! Blueks!.

And u noe, i was like FOREVER
looking for a C.brown CD!!
and finally i found it at HMV the Heeren
but guess what?? it would cost me
30 bux! and i'm like? WTF?
i was really tempted, mind you.
Haizzz... but my better head was tellin
me maybe u should check out in the net.
either amazon.com or ebay.

MAN!!! y do they have to import??
too DAMN expensive!.
and u noe if i wld have bought the album
i woulda spend moore then BESTIE.

AnyWhoos, im actually FREAKING
excited bout Bb Darlz berfday this cumin 23rd!.
i just have to make a list of stuff that i nid to buy him.

Somehow i feel like this berfday is goin to be diff!! hah!.
maybe even CORNY.
but its like whatever!

I've been havin this plan ever
since we celeb the last one. and i rily am
determined to make it happen!.
hopefully it will turn out GOOD!
insyallah.

I'm always thingking of the next event,
right after the other one just finishes.
and since this year i seem to have
some money to spare. i'm thingking
of doin all out for him.
Hopefully he likes it!.

haizzz...
only a couple of weeks left
and berfday boy celeb his 19th
berfday!.

hehehe.. i'm excited for him!..

Oke, until the next BLAB!

I shall stop here!.

Peace!

uRs tRuLy,

.cT riAH.

*I might be a young girl but I know how to have fun, I got them boys chasing me tryina make me the one *

Why am i TO SUFFER?

2007-09-03T16:27:00.001+08:00

Well hello to u ppl... i'm back fer an update
of my lyfe...

Its been pretty much the same..
except now i've got muaself a job..
So now my lyfe revolves around skool and werk...

I'm pretty much PISSED OFF at BF rite now,
coz guess what? He happy2 delete my Frensta account!!
Apparrently he claims that a lot of guys or
supposedly *mat motors*
been friend requesting my account and he doesn't like it..

I mean what the Fuck*? I just dunno what to say anymore..
He's beggining to be one of my stress factors..
i mean i tot we were doing great..
then all of a sudden he deletes my frensta without my consent?..

He says he wants to make an account together, but
commonlah Dear u didn't have to delete my account rite?..

Dis may seem that i don't really care,
but i do.. i rily do!!

That FREAKING account has been created even
before frensta was popular.. i created it back
in early 2004!! and now its gone... all those
nostalgic Testi's is gone.. all because of his INSECURITIES*!

I rily dunno what to say, i dunno how to vent my anger..
to who i should turn to.. coz wen sumthing goes wrong i
would turn to him.. but now, that sumthing wrong is him..

I'm physically and mentally tired..
i don't have enuff energy to entertain his
stupid petty bitching..

His everyday whinings, about how i'm
not paying enough attention to him..

I mean don't get me wrong ppl..
I LOVE him still...
the love is there.. Of coz..
Is just that i'm tired of him accusing me of stuff
that i don't do...

Haizz... but anyhoos..

Lyfe is pretty much the same
aside from the BF problem..
I'm oke..

Now that i have a job, shopping is
what comforts me...
Altho that miight also be a problem
too...
Financially it could be a problem..

How i wish Money wasn't a factor...
Lyke money can come easily..

But den again, if u don't work hard for sumthing,
you may not appreciate the things u have..

Oke i think i've said enuff..

I might rant out random stuff,
thats prolly gonna be NONSENSE...

So i shall stop here..
Aiite...

Peace!

uRs tRuLy,

cT Ria)-(

*Tell me whats the definition of love, Seems like everybody thinks they can figure it out... *

Now that His GONE....

2007-06-09T21:50:00.000+08:00

I feel so empty
Now that his not here..
Its so depressing..
Knowing that i won't be able to
hear his voice whenever i wan...

My heart is heavy..
I can't seem to do anything right..
I'm crying soo much that it hurts
deep inside..

I wish he was here to make it all
better..
Everytime i hear his voice,it makes
it that much worse..

God.. i just wish he was here to hold
me tight.. But they say time apart will
make us that much stronger right??

Its 9.45 pm already.. how come he hasn't
call me yet?...

Haizzz... I'm that much worse without him..

What am i to do.. without u here...

*Baby i love you, you are life.. My happiest moments
weren't complete if u weren't by my side..*

Come back to MeEee Baby!!

2007-06-08T00:27:00.000+08:00

I can't believe that there will come
a day when he finally have to serve the
nation and leave me here all alone...
I feel soo alone.. and i feel the emptyness
creeping inside my heart..

And from the looks of it, it's here to stay...
I just can't seem to comprehend the situation
no matter how hard i try....

Listening to all this soppy songs isn't helping
much either coz these tears still keep cuming..
I dowant to be a Minah Jiwang but i can't help but
feel depressed..

I mean commonlah Ct, every person is going thru this
and i'm being a Baby.. ARgghhhhh!! This emptyness that
is filling my heart, HURTs sooooo DAMN much!!!!

Aniwaes Bb will officially be goin in tomorrow and
supposedly i'm supposed to meet Bb at his house
around 7, but early then that is better.. I plan
to wake up at 5 am.. But i'm still not sleepy...
Y? coz these tears won't stop falling...

I hate feeling sooo weak!! plus his not gonna be here to
make it all better... I HATE THIS FEELING!!!
PLEASE GO AWAY!!! ARGHHHHHH!!!!....
Sakit tahu!!! just stop it larhh..

Siti be strong, if not for you, For Yan... coz
he'll be the one serving his NS... Not YOU
CRYBABY!!!....

Reminicsing OUR memories for the past few weeks..
Him passing his TP especially... Boy was he happy..
At least he get to ride his KRR.... and at least something he
can be happy about.. Seriously for me, i could care less
about riding on hi bike! Sumpah tak bedek!! Coz its him
that matters...

3 years of courtship with him,the fights,the accusations,
the sarcasm can never add up to the pain i'm goin thru right
NOW!!! Coz this hurts... coz this pain we never inflict on each other..
thats why it hurts sooo bad!!!

I knew that wen things gooo sooooooo well, something
bad is bound to happen.... i just wish i was moore prepared to
take the blow.... To ease the pain moore quickly..

I know that my bloggie haven't been updating
regularly... and i definitely have my reasons..
Bb is part of it... But u know what... i'm
jus gonna update pictures now... ok..
hope u like it...

Bb sticking a n0. 9 sticker onto his bike..

Bb,Hilfi & Hussain doing somthing to Hussain's Bike...

Bb Playing aroung on his KRR (I like to kol it KRR.. Obviously coz
of the sticker...)

Bb's fav position sitting on his bike...

Yes Ct belen2.... muahahahaha...

Da bike looks small in pic ehk? but If life-size
Besar... i didn't notice it wen ferst time Bb fetch me
to skool..

Yesh the big-head me... Dis was Mon... He fetch
me from skool then we (Me,Bb,Hilfi,Wan a.k.a Ridz and Hussain)
hung out... haizzz... No moore of this though...

I'm really too sedih to upload any moore pics...
so until next time... I'll update again K??...

PeacE!!

.Mizzpinkie.

*If I don't have you, To hold on to,I can't go on in this world alone, Baby its true...*

Put A TiTtLe HERE..

2007-05-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

Okay 2 MONTHS of HIATUS!! Haha..
I swear i've been dragging myself to
post a journal.. and u all tot maybe i
have just given up.. Naw.. ain't neva that..
Juz been plain LAZY.. yesh imma BIG fat
lazy-ass!!.. hahaha.. but lemme juz update ya'll
with da happenings..

-Went Clubbing again rite after my short three weeks of hols (Dancing the nite away!!)
-Went on Holiday to New Zealand (and it was da BOMB!*)
-Shop till i dropped in NZ (I love wen they have bargain shops and da clothes are lyke looking oh so expensive!*)
-School is cuming to a term end and exams are round the corner (yikes!)
-Was exempted from 1 module (and it feels like i have sooo much free period..)
-Baby's TP is on this cumin 17th.. (yep.. believe it onnot, his gonna becum a so-called M.R.S *figure that one out urselves* sooner then i expected.. pssst!)
-Wen't for job interview at 7'11... (yeah2 i need me some money, can't depend on my weekly allowance alone..)
-Went to watch the kickass Spiderman 3* Muvee!!(Damn SHIOK!! altho the Seats sucks!!)

Yep... soo far that has been goin on... at least that what i can think of rite now... haisshhh.. oh yah i been meaning to put pics of my adventure in NZ but i'll put them wen im in a mood for long ass loading.. oh and i'm in LOVE* with mua new shades!! heh... i noe,i noe sooo random... but i'm wacky that way... oke... i think i'll stop here... till my next update!.. cya!!

PeACE!!

Mizzpinkie

*Baby what we doing makes the sun come up, Keep on lovin’ til it goes back down, And I don’t know what I’d do if I would loose your touch, That’s why I’m always keeping you around, My sexy love..*

DissaPoinTing

2007-03-05T12:40:00.000+08:00

I can only update a bit.. Niwaes juz to inform
eu guyz that.. i won't be able to update every week..
coz my pc is being repaired.

Niwaes remember i told eu that i might be
goin to New Zealand soon... No i'm still goin..
But my Cuz Ida might not.. and its really sad..

Coz its been quite sumtyme since i went holiday with her!!
And i was really looking forward to it...
haizzz... hopefully she changes her mind!!

On da bright side Bb has an interview fer werk
tomorrow!! Yayness!! eu noe wat that means??
More things fer me!!! And Vroooom2 to school soon!!!..

Tralalalala!...

PeaCE!!

MizzPinkie

*Simple things is what my heart beats for..*

-_!!He DriVes me CraaaZZy!!_-

2007-02-24T13:07:00.000+08:00

Met hym again yesterday!! c00Lness*
u noe wen it feels shoo good, eu feel like ur
on top.. wEeEeEeE~ tRaLaLa!..

Oh ya! i forgot to mention sumtynk on
Valentine's day! Farah DarLz gave me a
rose!! was shoooo ShwEeT!!.. heh!..
Thank-you my DEAR!! it's greatly appreciated!!
Had sHoo much fun the past wEeK, altho i
felt rily terrible on Wed!! bluek!..
Serves me rite 4 partying all nite on monday!!
and silly me didn't cleeP the whole day on TuesdAy!..

So cum Wed, bam! my head hurts REAL bad!..
Khakhakha.. but it was all worth it!.. at least i
get to spend da nyte wif hyM!..

Niwaes yesterday, went to watch bb play soccer.
it was fun.. though he didn't score any goal fer me..
Boohoo!.. but i had a great time wif hym and his frenz..
A fun bunch they are!.. Love to watch him play again!.

Oh ya did i mention dat i went to da hospital with
his mum & dad?.. but didn't get to take pictures with
hym though or his family. Was to "SEGAN", it was da ferst tyme
i ride in his family car. Plus with his nenek,mum&dad.. i was
very nervous coz yan didn't tell me about visiting abg wan
with his family.

Speaking of Abg wan, my heart ♥ goes out to hym..
mY tears wanted to fall wen i saw hym, but i'm really
Glad that his gettin betta!..

Oke i think i wrote too much..and i think i'm gonna juz
leave eu guys wif da pics...

Annivessary gift frm hym

Da brownie that i made fer hym..

Da card i gave hym

Trying to feed hym da brownie, this pic
lukz bad huh??..

Dis is betta!.. haha.. but the flash was
too bright and the wind didn't help
much either..

This pic is random(i came over his house)

He was trying to be fierce..

Dis is where i was on Monday nite!.. (MOS♥)

DanCing&Grinding with Hym Was SHIOK!! heh!..
(He looks drunk don't he?..)

With mua sisters!..

KakSha&Me

KakNa&Me

I had a Blast at MOS!.. i didn't get to take
any pichas wif mua gErL yEuL though..
But itz oke, there's always a Next tyme!!..
Oh ya! Thnx FeEz fer da TiX!.. heh...
can't wait to go clubbing again.. but not
anytime soon though.. but i do planned to
go b4 i go fer my holiday.. heh!..

Told eu guyz i had a BLAST the past week!!..
heh.. aM LOVIN iT!!...

Okay i think i'll stop here.. cya Soon!!

PeAcE

MizzPinkie

Show me you can laugh,Show me you can cry,Show me who you really are, deep down inside..

FiNaLLy..

2007-02-20T23:12:00.000+08:00

Oke, the past week had just past.. bt it
feels that a lot has happened.. and i feel
shoooo damn tired man.. and i also
feel that i should update moore often.
So then i won't fall behind.. also i won't feel
shooo damn lazy too update all the HAPPENINGS.

Seriously its not bcoz my lyfe have been mundane
lately in fact a lot has been happening that i still haven't
really taken it all in. oh well... guess have to start with
mua 3 YEARS ANNIVESSARY. heh.

It went preetty well actually, altho i aimed to celeb
with him earlier den that, but no werries it went
smoothly wen at ferst he was too tired to go out.
Oooh guess wat i actually cried while
reading hym the card i made hym.. it was really EMO siaa..
khekhekhe, bt it was really sincere tears of LOVE... heh.
Oooh... and guess what i did?? Baked him Brownie!..
Yummie yum2!! altho he was expecting a cake instead..
Sweetheart i'm not that "terrer" lah syg... maybe 1 dae
i will fer eu.. bt now basic2 dulu.. hehehe...

Niwaes we went to P.Ris Beach to celeb our Annivessary,
mind eu even tho it was romantic, we cldn't exactly see properly.
Coz it was shoo damn dark! serves us rite fer goin out late.
hah!.. bt all in all it went great, he was in a really (but very sleepy)
good mood by the end of the dae. So i guess it paid off!! hehehe..

I have dem pictures, jus haven't uploaded to the pc yet..
and i rily don't feel like it, coz my pc really SUX big time!..
i want a new PC pweese...

Okelah, i think i'll end it here.. coz guess what?
My mum wants to use the pc... Bluek!

PeAcE!

MizzPinKie

With You baby, it never rains and it's no wonder, It's just a blessing that I have found somebody like you..

-_!!Happy Together!!_-

2007-02-09T20:32:00.000+08:00

I shall not delay anymoore...
I've been M.I.A fer shoooo LONG!!
is just that lyfe has been sooo hectic lately,
and wen i get home i feel shooo DAMN TIRED!!

Well aniwaes Valentine's is round da corner,
and guess wat?? OUR 3 YEARS ANNIVESSARY
is cuming!!!!
I can't wait!! Seriously i really am EXCITED!!
A lot has happened and it wasn't perfect through out,
but i really do LOVE YOU my DARLING!!...

And i've got sooo much planned is jus that i'm runnin
out of tyme... Plus i'm sick..
I've got all the materials.. but there's juz
1 moore thing that we haven't got fer our 3 years of courtship,
and i'm hoping it will come true* this year... Insyallah.
Its all i can say, but even if it doesn't come true i will still be
grateful that i got to celebrate it with you M.Sufyan!!..
A day filled with LOVE!!..

Hehe... ThanX Love fer capturing my heart!..
I still remember what you said the day we
became an Item. I know you aint perfect, so am i!
But you have given your all and i've never felt soo
much Love from you!! THank-You!!!

I LOVE YOU!!! Mwackz2!!*

Oke i Shall stop here bout our LOve*
or u all will get my sickness*
Niwaes guess what?? Im goin to New Zealand!!
YeyNess!! i'mmm Shoooo EXCITED!!!
i shooo can't wait!! even though i'll be
leaving Yan behind i still can't wait!!
heh!... Even moore so wen i found out
My DaRLing Kuzin Idah* will be goin TOO!!!
Hehe... GirLS just wanna have fun!!*

Hehe... okelah... i think i will stop here..
Coz the Flu is getting to me...
Thnx fer Tuning in!!

PeACE!!

MizzPinkie

*movin' to the beat of the song,wish it could last all night long...

BerFdAy

2007-01-30T11:23:00.000+08:00

I seem to have moore time outside of home,
wen it cums to using the pc.. haizzzz...
Coz everybody wants to use the pc!!!
Even Ibu! ever since internet Banking
was created,she uses it to her full-advatage!
Bluek!!..

So today got to BLoG.. finally!..
Didn't go fer cheerleading today.. The rest didn't feel
like it. but we did chill out until 4..den reach home arnd 4 plus plus,
Wonder wats Irah gonna say tomorow bout our bailing, or worse
Wawa!! nyeh... but whu Cares rite girls??..

Aniwaes My 19th berfday just past.. and as usual, celeb it
wif Family and BbLarLing!.. yEuL said she wants to treat me
mKn!.. khekhe.. ShylaR me... Thnx geRL, thats soo SweeT!!..
Speaking of yEuL, i haven't really spoke my mind bout this very
immature giRL thats been harrasing yEuL & her Lyfe..
Ishk2.. Sayin in most post that she wants to *move on* but
been doin exactly the opposite, HELLO Paham tk by the phrase movin
on?? It means that you dowant to be connected to ur past
lyfe? Geddit?.. But by calling him and wanting to know whether his
okay its not *movin on*. tsk tsk..

Ntahlah ehk.. sng ckp der tu mcm PAHAM. Tapi yEuL ku
raser ader Hikmah di belakang ni sume. U just have to have
faith in you&Syam, coz i believe in you two!! Don't let sumOne
with their childish acts ruin it fer da both of you!! k!! if u eva
need anything, jgn segan2 msg ku!!.. I LURB YOU!! *Mwackz2*

oke,oke!.. enuff wif da mushy2 stuff..
as i'm too lazy to type anymoore, i'm juz gonna leave u wif a few pics that i took
while having dinner at swensens wif mua FAMILY!! kz...
*SMOOCHES*

While waiting fer our seats...

Same face kerRrR????

BerFday GeRL and MuMMie!!..

Da mEnTelz me....

SisNadtz&MuMMie!...

KakSha&MuMMie...

Me&Mummie Again....

KakSha Gossipin bout ME!! Hmph!!...

Finally,the food came... Calamari rings,Rodeo
Wings & Ceasar Salad..

Ibu Mixing the salad..

My Chicken Baked Rice!!..

Yummie Yum2...

SisNadtz enjoying her Chilli Fish PAsta..

Ibu and her Crayfish Pasta...

ICe-Cream T-I-M-E!....

Ibu's Yam ice-cream...

KakSha's Malt Ice-cream...

Same goes wif SisNadtz..

And my Stickychewychocolate!!....

Yup thats all the pichas we took... hehehe... LOVe da ice-cream!!!
YUMMIE!!!!...
oh ya before i forget, if u notice i'm wearing the
necklace that Zeyma bought fer me fer my berfday!!
Thank-you gErL!!! (jgn ckp ku tk pkai eh Zeyma!!)
i actually have gazzillion moore pics to upload..
but maybe mext update k??

Well till den

peacE!!..

MizzPinkie

*I wanna know boy If I could be ya shawty,Set if off boy And make me hot all ova my body..

MET HIM TODAY!!..

2007-01-22T00:27:00.000+08:00

Oke fer ur info this entry is goin to be
Random oke?.. so bear with me...

So met up with Bb juz nw, i went over
to Ubi and go Hilfi's house.. Eh Hilfi umah
ko lawar eh?? Dah bper lamer tk g mah ko
den tad mcm berseri2 gtu!.. hahaha..
jgn feeling plz..

Oh btw, Bb and the gang been hangin
out at Hilfi's Crib since his parents went Haji..
Juz so u guys noe,nanti laen mcm pulak asl
g mah laki lean eh?..

We didn't do much, just hung out..
Took random pixies with my NEW fone*
Bt i haven't upload it yet to the pc..
so later2 lah... Aniwaes, Bb said he has something
special fer me fer my berfday!.. i can't wait!!..
Coz i'm quite surprised! heh..

Whateva it is, i'm sure i'll LOVE IT* heh..
Thank you fer making the effort Bb!..
Ur a sweetheart!..

Bb was soo cute juz nw... altho i think we spent
only 3 hrs with each other just now. I love
every second of it!.. All we did was cuddle2..
Well it was enuff fer me to have butterflies in
me stomach!! shylar me...

LOVE YOU MUHAMMAD SUFYAN!!!
24 moore days to our 3 years!!! Yayness!!
i can't wait!!..

oke lar.. thats fer all!

PeacE!!

Mizzpinkie

VerY da mundane... (WHERE R U Bb?!?)

2007-01-20T17:07:00.001+08:00

I'm feelin restless...
really2 restless... Bb is nowhere to be found..
Kol Bb's mummy fone, she said he be home but
kol his home and his sis says his nt. N i have no way
of contacting him. He said he wants to mit me...
but no werd frm him till now.. i'm upset and HUNGRY!

Tot of goin out wif Bestie bt she's no where to b
found either, kol her bt nobody picked up and since she's
nt using HP anymoore, i dunno what else to do..
Today seem to be a slow day fer me.. itz rainin..
and did i mention i'm hungry? Haizz.... Dunno wat to do,
or where to go...

Aniwaes from my other blog, i posted that i'm buying a new
phone and i did! heh. wif my own money k!! now my money
only left a few hundred bux... i noe! i noe! is better then nuthing.

yeUL msged me and told me whether i wanna werk part-time at
this pizza place... forgot the name.. told her y not?.. bt i tink i be able
to werk on weekends only... as i'll be bz during weekdays.
HAizzz... i'm sooo BORED!!! i wanna get out of this place i kol home.
Bb WHERE R U???? y haven't u kol me up yet!!! hw can u leave me like
dis....???? BLUEK!

Ok2... i shld get a grip.. ooooh...
Kaksha's berfday just passed!
i didn't get her any presents...
bt i did treat her to Fish&Co last weekend...
there goes my pay... khekhekhe.. hadn't spent much
on my pay though.. coz once i strt i can't STOP!!
DAMN IT!... aperlah Ct...

Kakkam berfday juzt passed, which means
mine is cumin soon... NOOOOOO!!!
I want to stay 18 FOREVER!! PLEASE??..
I promise i'll be gooD!!
Yes?
No?....
Hmph!!
FINE!!!

19 here i cummm.......!!

Ok i declare this update as the END.

Stay tune fer moore me!!..

Wakakaka...

PeAce!!

Mizzpinkie

What an IDIOT!!

2007-01-19T14:29:00.000+08:00

Ok finally i can blog... i changed my URL, due to
my Very itchy hands my other BLOG apparently
went haywire.. and since i haven't figure out how
to get it back in motion, i'm using this one instead.

A word of advise though, if u see something
that got u really curious and u rily want to find out
what it does or wat it contains, plz don't!! Coz u only
end up disappointed and frustrated!! coz thats wad
happened to mee!!!! Eughhhhh!! and i feel like kicking myself!!
Seriously after all those years blogging!! GONE!! juz like that!!
And it hurts!! coz i've been blogging since 2003!!! and itz gone!!
imagine all my memories!! hmph!! Serves u rite CT!!!
Like they say "Curiousity kills the Cat!!"

BLuek! Oh well... i guess itz a NEW blog and a NEW start!
Guess gotta tell some bloggers bout my new URL!!
Will blog again A.S.A.P!!!

PeacE!!

Mizzpinkie

mA LiFe iN wErDZ~~

Nothing better to do

Its been a long time...

Apologies.

Nothing better to do..

I love my frenster layout.

Happy&&Sad at the same time....

I'm excited!

Yay!! new Layout__ i HEART it+++

hello2...

What Da hell??

Can u believe it??

its someone's berfday TODAY!

it's ct BITCH!

Finally..

I used to...

Too late...

Two OO eight

Yesh,I'm inLoveE.

++SomeoOne berFday Is cUmin++

Why am i TO SUFFER?

Now that His GONE....

Come back to MeEee Baby!!

*Put A TiTtLe HERE..*

DissaPoinTing

*-_!!He DriVes me CraaaZZy!!_-*

FiNaLLy..

*-_!!Happy Together!!_-*

BerFdAy

MET HIM TODAY!!..

VerY da mundane... (WHERE R U Bb?!?)

What an IDIOT!!

Put A TiTtLe HERE..

-_!!He DriVes me CraaaZZy!!_-

-_!!Happy Together!!_-